Facing Pain

Facing Pain Results in Spiritual Growth

........If facing pain results in spiritual growth then obviously avoiding pain would result in a failing lifestyle. Avoiding is accomplished through denying the absolute truth which is painful for those who have had a childhood of constantly avoiding pain by giving in to trauma conditioning. The bombardment of feelings and more feelings, the interactions with parents which are then accepted as a way of life imprint into the child's mind a negative mechanism which turns upon itself to develop an altered state of mind which joins in with ego and evil. This is the "world's greatest conspiracy". Within the evil development we see the loss of spirituality and the loss of all of the orginal gifts necessary for a purposeful and fulfilled lifestyle. These original at birth gifts are common sense, insight, intuition and perception . It does not take long for the corrupted parent to displace these gifts because this kind of parent is unable to associate with innocence which actually represents Creation. How in the world can a person with a big ego (the know it all) stand next to its biggest competition - Creator. How can evil (that which energizes the ego) let the purpose of Creation take hold where the game is "who wins and who loses".

........The human entity who avoids pain lives through feelings constantly being needy and believing that love is to need and to receive emotional gratifications which satisfy the ego needs. These are always the material things of the world in conjuction with many addictions. To go through painful experiences in order to feel the pain permits the human entity to grow spiritually and at the same time reverses the transgressions into a spiritual base of forgiveness, thankfulness and righteousness. Of course this is all what religious people might describe as religion. Yes, religion and blind faith must come to those who face the pains of life. We can now see that anyone who changes instantly into a "newborn" is unable to experience the pain of change, especially when it is not sincere and therefore is a hypocrit. It is the deep sincerity which enables human entities to change for the better and at the same time raise their consciousness to a state of mind which is able to see the truth and remove the denial condition. Religions call this salvation.

........Once the human entity reaches the age of fourty or there abouts and there is a strong state of denial, it becomes very difficult to reverse the altered state of mind because after so many years of avoiding pain the human physical body has become conditioned to resist. It has developed layers and layers of defensive mechanisms. It may have gone through utilization of medications, drugs and other mechanisms such as food, music, entertainment, sex, cigarette smoking and alcholic drinks. All addictions prevent the experience of pain for spiritual growth although some create a second stage alert which can be very painful but so often is not the experience we are writing about here necessary for corrective change. Anything which creates a feeling without the other kind of feeling coming from being hit, burned or injured is a means to avoid the experience. It is natural to avoid pain from injury and fire but it is not natural to avoid the pain of life because it is simply a matter of being responsible to one's actions and thoughts as a directive of Creation and why we are here in the first place. And the basis of responsibility is something one must not avoid to be one with Creation.

........You must see that we are all here for a purpose and not here to feed upon our personal gratification (ego). Egotistical people, and most people are egotistical, have found their comfort zone within evil (world's greatest conspiracy) which has manifested its way into the state of mind of most people. If it would not be for the evil elements with which we must all contend, everything would be loving and spiritual but when spiritual man came upon this earth he had been given the challenge to deal with "it". It has always been like taking a class and test in school and so far the grades for most human entities is an "F". Creator has been watching the course since the beginning and has put forth a referendum for those to either open their eyes or be rewarded adversely which is today seen as illnesses and death. Do not forget that a depression is a message and not an illness. Illnesses and death are painful and can be avoided by simply waking up to absolute, giving up ego and its gratifications, dropping the denial mechanisms, forgiving all those who had created the original trraumas and taking full responsibility for one's actions and thoughts never to blame.

Dr.Roy Foster - with another memo

Resenting a parent

When you do not send a greetings card to your parents on their wedding anniversary you add to the guilt which motivates your present lifestyle to keep you in a state of denial. When you receive a greeting card after the birth of your baby from your parents explaining its meaning in regard to who she is named after and you cannot and do not wish to read it, this behavior is a perfect example of denial and only living in " what makes me feel OK". There is an ignorance in all of this, and although one might be supposedly successful in making a living, this lifestyle is totally unsuccessful when it comes to reality and spirituality. It actually is a psychoses and involves all of the emotions and needs to believe "it" is the way to go.

The opportunity to emotionally and spiritually grow and leave childhood behind is a choice we all can make and must make to reach our original purpose, otherwise we all remain in the hands of "it". To explain "it" is throughout my writings and simply is as follows.

We all, without exception, become corrupted during our childhood development. No parent is yet to provide the correct and healthy emotional and spiritual base for the child until that parent herself or himself has come to a realization of absolute truth which only originates from Creator. The awakening and enlightenment experience is always painful and for this reason very few human beings reach the higher consciousness necessary to stay within a mind set of spirituality and oneness with Creator.

Emotions consisting of resentment - the curse; anger - the judgmental rebellion; jealousy - the overbearing egotistical feeling; sexual feelings - the original separation from Creator; addictions - the ties to "it" because of all the emotional needs leave us all in a state of denial and "spin" where we must always flip our thought process to feel we are OK the way we are rather than facing the painful truth to possibly go through "change".

Change can only come through pain and when we all avoid this pain the change cannot take place. The molested child stays molested because the pain is so great and deep and therefore this child remains helplessly in the hands of "it" to continue a pattern of life in total misery and denial. This person goes to materialism and if this is not there drugs because there is never enough to fulfill their lives. This can be described as possessed by evil. The error one makes is to always permit one's ego ( playing God to feel that life the way it is is fine although in the hands of "it" ) to dominate the mind through all of the feelings constantly coming from childhood so many years back. If molested, this is very serious and most likely incurable.

The biggest error is to blame parents and this is so easy to do. Guilt always play its toll upon the emotional human entitity and the distorted mind which needs to always try to spin its way out of "it". Blame and be angry is the name of the game. The cure is forgiveness and personal responsibility. The dysfunctional family cycle always continues on into a hellish lifestyle when the change is not accomplished. Materialism is a serious hindrance to change. The more money you make permits the addiction to set in more and more and the opportunity to change and be self-corrected falls by the wayside. What one needs to be for true happiness is then unavailable because layers and layers of denial begin to pile up and the lifestyle of this corrupted mind set is only survival through feelings of guilt. Life then is nothing but to stay guilty to be motivated to do anything and this causes tiredness, wear and tear and a need to make excuses all the time. The rational mind no longer exists and there is a turmoil of confusion when it comes to the thought process and decision making. The "know it all" grows as this individual loses any spirituality or emotional stability. It also provides the base for schizophrenia because what we see here is a human entity which changes it moods and positions constantly never knowing who and what it is at any given moment but struggling within itself with the guilt and anger. Until this is expressed properly and sincerely to the source of the problem and to Creator asking for forgiveness, with the full acceptance of no longer taking from life but to give to life, one remains loyal to "it" which is the curse. Look to where the allegiance is at all times!

To hide behind the ego to try to feel good and to have everyone stroke you to make you be someone is denial. This dysfunctional lifestyle then makes you wish to control and manipulate others. To those who really know the truth, which is really not from them but through them via Creation, one might say,"You think you are God". This is because the ego is the competitor of absolute truth and life is nothing but competition when it comes to the corrupted mind. However, all relationships are basically sick in a dysfunctional family. One cannot have a true loving relationship with anyone here. It is using and abusing all the time where of course there is no true love but the feelings ego needs to believe it is OK. In a marriage the wife and husband use and abuse each other and learn to do things to manipulate and control each other. For example, the wife can have children in order to keep the husband in a state of mind where he is unable to say what is on his mind. During this example, if the the husband does not correct the wife the wife does not have any respect for him because she needs correction and is always looking for it but only then is she to lay her sickness upon the children. This is the reason that a recent woman killed her five children with a husband who was unable to fix "it". It is just a matter of time in a dysfunctional family and of course extreme example are the best when we must learn from that experience.

People do not learn because they live in denial which is the comfort zone they have created around them to always feel OK rather than do that which is correct. To them there is no absolute correctness but the gray areas they created to avoid absolute truth. This is accomplished by earning more and more money where ever possible, living off of materialism, and constantly being angry and judging others especially parents to blame for all of this as the big excuse. Life then becomes nothing but an addiction to the feeling gotten out of "it". The liberal mind lives this way always to spin its way out in order to feel that it is right in its own denial of absolute truth. Bill O'Reilly is a good example of demonstrating to the public what "spin" is all about. And you can see this in his TV show on Fox News Channel that he has become somewhat angry at those who live through "it" and he attacks those who live by way of "it". The possessed mind is basically evil and Bill O'Reilly has reached a point in his life to be able to see "it".

........A note here is that without perception, common sense, insight, and intuition all original gifts from Creator, the ability to envision the truth and observe "it" is unavailable. Guilt then dominates the mind and actually becomes the motivating factor rather than the inner sense to do the correct thing which now has become invisible and disconnected from conscience. Also instinct to most people is their way of life which is a destructive misconception because instinct is carnal and what should be the means for direction is not instinct but intuition something originally given to all of us until corrupted. Intuition is a sense to know what is correct without even thinking about it. The irrational mind which is boggled with layers of trauma and anger is unable to use these original now suppressed gifts from Creator.

........Now getting back to "it". Possibly you have discovered that "it" is evil. "It" needs energy to survive and this is provided for through emotions such as resentment, anger and jealousy. These emotions create an altered state of mind which must control and manipulate others and from all of this there is no earned respect. However, one must learn and understand that all the corruption in us came from parents who did not know any better at that time and hopefully fulfilled their life later through awakening experience such as fighting with authority, going to jail, court cases and hardships such as doing without money. One must say they are lucky when they have parents who have gone through all of this and to have the absolute truth in their midst. The awakening is then at one's fingertips but sometimes avoided as denial stands firm.

........Grandfather Bill is a good example of a man who avoided his family and now suffers because he has been given time to suffer. Creator makes those suffer in order to hopefully make the change needed. With guilt the main motivating factor in a person's life, the inevitable comes around sooner or later because conscience at the end rules. This cannot be eliminated without experiencing sincere forgiveness and removing blame, and then to continue on in life being responsible for every feeling and thought in the mind and at the same time dropping resentment, anger and jealousy.

........I had recommended many months ago to go to group therapy and of course you have avoided doing this. Behavior patterns which are dysfunctional need to be corrected before the age of fourty. Once you go past correction, other physical disorder set in. These can be ulcers, cancer, heart attacks, diabetes and even serious bacterial diseases. The reason is that the physical body deteriorates through the emotional lifestyle especially with so much suppressed anger and resentment. Chemistry changes take place in the physical body and cause the deterioration. I used to be a pharmacist and had many years of experience in the medical field to see this all, which is inevitable. Being overweight adds to the problem and to have worked out with weights adds to the overweight. Stomach pains are a symptom but a good message hopefully to learn from. We must realize that there is a time in our lives when change can be made and a time in our lives when it is just too late.

........The key now is right here. It might take a lot of crying and pain to realize that one has spent so many years blaming and hating, and avoiding correction known as discipline. The spoiled child has this serious problem because discipline is not the order of the day. Actually it should be selfdiscipline which is learned through seeing what is the correct thing to do and eliminating how one always feels at the moment to make that decision or choice. When the child leaves the home and creates its own comfort zone, it know longer can experience what it needs to be corrected. This takes place when one finds friends to stroke each other, marry a female who keeps the environment of guilt the same where the interactions remain sick and unloving, and children are born to make them just the same to become escapegoats for the parental inadequacies. And on and on it goes.

........There is no cure for this immature behavior pattern unless some good therapy takes place. Behavior can be corrected through group therapy, if that person has a desire to be corrected and hopefully the ego does not get in the way. Those who absolutely do not wish to try this kind of therapy must go on to experience much pain because it is the nature of conscience that is the true order of all human beings (entities) otherwise it is the nature of "it' which possesses the mind and sooner or later takes its toll on the physical body and provideds for a life of hell.

Dr.Roy Foster www.MentalGrowth.com

True Love is a Loving State not Needing

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True Love is Not What You Think It Is

How Creator loves humanity is the correct way that all human entities should love each other. This is not what we see today. The love we see is needing, dependence, use and abuse. The love we see is taking and always needing something from someone. Marriages bring two people together in order to satisfy their personal needs where sex and feelings come first which are both selfish needs. A comfort zone is created in marriages and friendships and in this zone they use and abuse each other. If there is anger carried over from childhood and in most cases there is, a love-hate relationship takes place which is not true love. The hate always needs to be expressed (sooner or later to avoid psychoses) and so often is by putting one individual on a pedistal which supports the incorrectness and actually the evil in that person. This weakens that person as a resentment grows towards the other which is actually doing the entire opposite to loving. A phoniness develops and grows which results in the partners in a marriage thinking that they love each other but actually they hate each other. Alzheimer and other mental disorders show up in the later years especially where the mind has not been able to think through things in a rational way or in a true loving way which is not even understood anyway. Evil destroys the human mind in time because the continuous emotional involvements in relationships where you have anger and the curse of resentment always a part of it to result in physical deterioration because of all of the chemistry changes in the physical body including the brain. Every emotional state contains some chemistry change and an eventual physical disability like diabetes.

Unless there is none of this taking place which we can see now consists of continuous emotional swings while suppressed anger even grows rather than peacefulness, understanding and a blis, then the relationship is within its own boundaries of use and abuse, manipulation and suppressed feelings leading to dishonesty and hypocrisy. The children will always suffer from the effects of all of these emotional upsets and from this we create the dysfunctional family. So often it includes so much stupidity in decision making because emotions come before the rational thought. Selfish gratification and emotions go together and the selfish decision to act in a way that satisfies a feeling rather than the right and correct thing to do is now the way of life.

This must be described as a "mental case" because all of this involves a condition called psychoses. Why a mental case? Because people in these relationships of love and hate all need help and group therapies to improve their behavior problem. The behavior which is learned needs to be corrected just as with any spoiled child but when the spoiled child goes out into the word there is nothing to correct him and her. The ego grows as feelings must be supported and the bigger ego needs more feelings as evil enters the mindset to further take over every thought and decision making. So many get into a marriage in order to feel good that their wrongs are right.

When one says to the other, "It is the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me that we met each other" unless this person has his or her total act together when it comes to the absolute truth - no anger and no denial, this is a nothing but finding a zomfort zone to enable that person feed into all of his or her needs and emotional expressions, even hate. One meets a person who has the identical image of the one you have really hated all of your life and then to become friends with that person in order to try to resolve the suppressed feelings usually much anger. You marry the person who has the same problems your parents had in order to reconcile all of your feelings which is using another for your benefit.

Creator's love is loving (giving) and involves correction and discipline, where the word "discipline" comes from the word "disciple". We must all be "disciples" of Creation which is how it all was supposed to happen, but went wrong a long time ago. Those who have never learned the absolute truth about this phenomenon, live through their own god (Satan) and create their own meaning of love within their comfort zone. Homosexuals cannot have a loving relationship because they are in most cases using the other partner(s) for sexual feelings and unless they remove the sex there is no loving. When all sex is eliminated in the homosexual relationship the mission is accomplished according to Creation.

Marriage is for a good reason which is to teach the partners to learn to live without sex and learn not to use each other for selfish reasons. This is not something we see today because most people do not understand this most valuable principle and even phenomenon of life within the spiritual human entity. The dysfunctional family of today just does not understand and instead of waking up to absolute it continues to reward its dysfunctionality with every need and addiction to feel good. There cannot be any love in this.

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Part II CHAPTER 7

TRUE SPIRITUAL LOVE
LOVING versus LOVE

........Words mean different things to different individuals depending on how each individual has been traumatized and corrupted by the moment of the word relative to the word “love” and surrounding circumstances. The word “love” means different things to different individuals. In some languages there are several words for the English word "love" where each word has a different meaning but in English we find more ambiguity which creates the confusion and permits the human mind to be more easily corrupted. There is always a reason and cause for everything and language is the extention of the corrupted nature of the people. For example opera sounds great in Italian but terrible in English. Some languages are romantic, such as Italian and French, and some languages are hard and agressive such as German, and some somewhat rediculous such as Chinese and Japanese. All of them express their own particular corrupted nature of that country. Corrupted individuals do not know true spiritual love (TSL). We have all been pressured to learn from our mind-programming and conditioning that their love is the only love. Non-corrupted from the higher consciousness APT/AST (absolute spiritual and pure truth) individuals see that there is a difference, while corrupted AHVC(abused, hurt and violated) individuals are addicted to their own false love.
........The author believes that one way to change your incorrect loving nature is to remove the word “love” from your vocabulary and mind thinking process and look at yourself as a “loving” person. This means changing from the taking and using mindset to a giving and forgiving mindset. Self-disciplining your thoughts will break the evil spell and reverse your "backwards" lifestyle. With an ego and evil life, a life of using and abusing others is the style.
Definition of Love: A strong complex emotion or feeling causing one to appreciate, delight in, and crave the presence of or possession of another, and to please and promote the welfare of the other, devoted affection or attachment.
Seems a little complex to you? The definition above in the first place is not a definition of true love (TSL). True love will be described in this short chapter as “loving” because so few on this earth know True Spiritual Love (TSL) and what it is. There must be an absolute love, our first love, because our Creator had made it that way in the very beginning. The wrong earthly spirit turned it around and made it as described in the above definition ...emotional, which is addicting, a feeling, which is addicting, possessive, which is demonic, a craving, which is addicting, to be affected by someone when in his presence, which is addicting, promoting someone's welfare basically weakens that other person to some degree, and finally any attachment to a person violates that person to some degree. All in the wrong earthly spirit.
........Now look at all of this misdirected programming relative to trauma conditioning in a love situation. When parents were trying to show love to their children, they had it all "backwards". For this reason, make the keyword “love” a moment of truth (MOT) for you to change from what you have been programmed to do. No longer will you use the word “love” and when you do you will look at your phoniness and corrupting nature and begin to change your ways to being loving as described here in this chapter.
........First, an understanding of all of this must be accomplished. You cannot love with a corrupt mind which is controlled and directed by your ego-God and influenced by the alien identity (AI-the entity that lives in the mind with evil intent). You cannot love a thing or object. You cannot love a situation or happening. This is what you learned to do through your corrupted mind programming while you were growing up from childhood. You were trauma conditioned many times over and over again. You were a victim without knowing (seeing).
Remember: When we use the word “corrupt” in this context we mean that while we were growing up we were spiritually and mentally violated by the wrong and evil earthly spirit, which corrupted our innocent nature which had been given to us by our Creator. We succumbed to the wrong nature of the alien identity (AI) which controlled our parents and others around us. We knew no better, we could see no other way and we assimilated the corrupt spirit by example, pressure and guilt. The repetition of the word “corrupt” is necessary to describe the condition of our minds and thought process. We cannot simply turn it off for one moment, its presence lives on until corrective justice is done ...known as repentence.

........Once you have left you home at an early age of 18 to 24 you no longer will be among those who understand correctness but only ego-growth. From then on your mental and spiritual growth is on a regressive slide. When you marry someone who places you on a pedistal constantly fortifying your incorrectness and ego-lifestyle, you are actually not loved but being further corrupted something you had been used to in order to still feel comfortable. You know no different. These are marriages which end up in disasters either in divorce or illness.
........You can acknowledge to circumstances, events, objects and things, but you cannot love them ...with a "greatest conspiracy" (WGC) and alien identity (AI) controlling your changed nature. If you are somewhat psychotic, hypnotized and addicted to life, you will find a need for all of them and it is not true love. TSL is a spiritual transference which leaves the mind and soul of an individual in favor of another individual. Of course the intellectual psychotics and psychopaths will say that they “love” and who is to say what that “love” is. And they will say “love” is different for each and every one of us. They have displaced the TSL with their own creations of “love” ...that’s what the "greatest conspiracy" (WGC) has been doing from the beginning of time. Now, you must understand that true love is better described as being “loving”. Yes, there is a first true love something that you missed or possibly just forgot about..
Words that relay this TSL ....spiritual transference are:
Understanding Patience

Wisdom Compassion, without emotion
Seeing Knowing, not from book knowledge Insight Perception Observing
All of these words come from an unemotional extra sense, and though they are words, they almost certainly were not used in a corrupt manner when you were being violated during your childhood discovery of sensuousness. Most likely they were never even used because the dysfunctional environment knows not of such language and understanding. Of course, there will be exceptions but it is unlikely that you experienced TSL. Your meaning and message which comes from these words, even now, while you are living in the violated changed nature, bring forth a different and separating inference.

Author's Comment: Basically, all words are corrupting in nature, but to be able to deprogram the most corrupting words which you have experienced over many years of trauma-conditioning is very important at this stage, to recognize the many words which have not influenced you in an evil manner. (see Volume I,"Change Your Words, Change Your Life, Change The World")

The type of "loving" words listed above sends a spiritual message. When you are “loving”, any word which must flow through your thinking process may be:
I understand what you mean
I will be patient with you
I will use wisdom in this situation
I have some compassion for your problem
I perceive your problem
I am observing your predicament
I know (see) that which is the right thing in this moment of pain
My insight to your heartache will make the necessary changes

My perception will only make things better
These types of thought phrases which contain mostly noncorrupted words send an unemotional message portraying true love (TSL).

Important: List some of your own by opening your WGC manual (the utilization of this manual or diary will bring you closer to correctiveness as a tool to use daily) and begin writing because you must be able to think freely and not do only what the author is suggesting you do. Do not emulate the author of this book. Learn to be free and use these words to lead you spiritually from that which has been controlling you. This is the Principle of Unwording, Chapter 7, Volume I.

People have lived all of their lives in a state of unrealistic love while always thinking that they were receiving love from their parents and friends. They never know the truth. They live forever in the lie, passing this fantasy of love from generation to generation. The love they know is addiction and needing. (see Volume I) The love they know draws energy from the other person in the form of emotional obsession, takes advantage of the other person and uses the other person’s body and soul for selfish ego needs such as sex. The love that they know is for excitement and stimulating addictions, which are all destructive emotional demands on the physical body, which eventually lead to chemistry changes, physical deterioration and death. How can this be love?
........You never knew (saw) the difference. There has never been anyone to show you anything different because this information has been hidden from you since the beginning of time. (this information is deserving of a Nobel Prize because it is this information which would remove the need for drugs and any addiction, and what more can any person want in life?) Now that you have been shown what TSL actually is, you can begin to reprogram your brainwashed addictive love day by day. The key word message is to eliminate the word “love” that you use constantly in your thought process and conversations.
........How corrupt it is to see a mother saying repeatedly to her child: “I love you dear” “I love you” “Luv yah” ...when she is just rubbing in the word “love” to make her child believe that there is a love when there is only a sense of possession. The emotional swings of phony love and hate create the brainwashed effect on the child. The child becomes disorientated and confused which leads to many guilt conflicts.
Now every time you see the word “love” somewhere in your thoughts or in another persons words to you, it must place you into a meditating state of observation. You will see the corrupt ongoing game. Sometimes it will be your playing the game and sometimes it will be the other person. At this moment of truth (MOT) you realize that you have been wrong and then you will begin to reprogram your phony love into the true loving nature you should have.
Each moment of realization is a new life for you.
Look into your soul (conscience) for the loving nature which was present before you were violated. It is there. Be patient and it will return to you. Remember the key words.......Look again at these "keywords".....
Understanding Observing
Patience Believing
Perception Sincerity
Wisdom Compassion (without emotion)
Insight Seeing (without viewing) Intuition Knowing (without knowledge)
As you reprogram your corrupt nature into a forgiving nature, you begin to say to yourself:
I forgive and forget
I have everything to be happy
I no longer can use and abuse
I no longer need anything
I can always live without it
I am free now
........As you change to the loving nature, people around you will either rebel or realize that they themselves need to change. It is hard to say which way they will go. Their needy addictions must be altered to change with you. When it comes to any marriage or even a friendship your change is "correctness" and the other partner will discover that there is work to do. It is hard work to obtain goodness and easy to operate through evil. For this reason homosexual marriages are proven to be incorrect because "they" took the easy way out through their original corrupt nature. Yes, it is always hard work to do what is right and correct. The author can however assure you that if you stick with it diligently and remove your addiction for “love” from the other person who for a while will reject your change the other person will eventually come back in spite of your “loving” nature. If the other person does not, then you have really lost nothing but a sick relationship, especially if it is sick. If you are married, you may find that your wife or husband cannot handle the sudden change because he or she has been addicted to your own needy addictions for a long time. He or she has been addicted to his or her parents needy addictions before meeting you. You married because your needs were met by the other person’s needs.

........It may be quite irritating and painful to stay with that person during the period of finding salvation. Creator gives you unlimited strength when you reach its presence. There is a sincere fulfillment in accomplishing this transition from phony love to TSL or a loving nature. No matter what anguish or pain you endure, staying firm in that which you believe aided by the original strength of your Creator will lead you into true happiness and contentment. In essence, it Will Save Your Life.
........When you are in the Loving State of Consciousness, and have moved your conscious state of mind out of the 3 lower levels of addictive emotional demands (see levels of consciousness page xxxiii, and Volume I), your TSL will flow freely and naturally, and will be received by those around you without any energy loss or Willfulness. If they cannot receive it naturally and in a loving way, be patient and understanding. Never use your Will to change other people. Just watch them going through their change. Teach yourself to smile at it and an occasional laugh is necessary for you to not fall for that which your lien identity (AI) has in mind for you ...a life of endless emotional dependencies. An occasional tear has a miracle effect.
........You must alter the phony "love" nature which you have lived with all of your past life to the "loving" nature by observing the key"word" ...love. At this moment of truth (MOT) you have created a meditative state ........and then be patient and understanding with sincere forgiveness.
........There are no feelings involved in TSL ...the feelings which you have known during all of your past years. TSL has a peacefulness and calmness which you have never seen before. You will soon be able to observe its presence. The good heavenly.......

Are you loving or do you always need? Pick up your WGC manual and write in your answers to this question. Question your sincerity.

THERE IS A LOST FIRST TRUE LOVE
........The author believes that when you have read these Volumes your yearning for absolute spiritual truth (APT/AST) will be enough to help you understand the protocol of devine spirituality. You will understand that you must first be loved by this devine love before you can show your true and sincere love. The following will explain why. When a child devil-ops within an environment containing no original Creator’s love but the love of learned evil influences, the maturing child does not experience the devine love which was designed to be present in all human entities. It was simply missing. The child will always seek the correct APT/AST love but is never able to find it. Evil influences have inherently conquered and displaced TSL. Without being truly loved in a correct manner the child knows no other way but to become (transference) similar to the adversity. Unconsciously the child reacts emotionally and becomes dependent on others which is the beginning of many needy addictions. The destructive result is that sexual feelings are aroused which lead to an added relationship with food (see Volume I) and then onto many other addictions created by man and his ego. Always remember that ego is man's way of substituting his will for that of his Creator.
........Understand that there was a first devine love and there was an original true love. TSL derives from our Creator which originates in the human entity at birth through the spirit of Creation. TSL can return but it is so often corrupted. Therefore the child is born into an evil corrupt environment which has endured from the beginning of spiritual man.
TSL is not created by worldly things. The spiritual root in every human entity has been corrupted away from being the original source of true love. Observe how people love everything to anything even to the extreme of loving satanic experiences and a love for murder. Observe how people love bad relationships and never see to change them. The corrupted (AHVC) human entity only knows one kind of love and that is the emotional and exciting need for love. When this corrupted human entity is fully devil-oped there no longer is a communication with APT/AST, Creator’s way, and the devine meaning of love has vanished.
........There are two kinds of love existing within the human entity the good kind and the bad kind. The good is devine love and the bad is corrupted love. The latter is nothing but misguided direction and something that has simply gone wrong. The AHVC ......

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Do We Learn From Pain? No!

Do We Learn From Pain? No!

.........Creator could intervene at anytime. Miracles have occurred and can occur when the time is right for Creator to intervene. The conflicts in Palestine and Israel are messages for the entire world, just as World War II had been. The problem is that people need to suffer before they change in any spiritual way. It could take a lot of pain to make the important impressions necessary in the minds of most people because the deeper the trauma conditioning and affects of so much past molestation on every child's mind the more suffering is necessary to turn it around.

........What message is now being sent to the world's populace? You most likely cannot see the most important message because guilt rules. It is that parental misguidance is turning the world into a mayhem. Evil lives in the mindsets of most people. It is not a phenomenon that simply floats around. It is a powerful element that is transferred from one human to another. It is an example of the difference between humans and animals. Because of the spirituality which originally existed in human entities this original state is foregone to a changing of the state of mind to move the world into a spiritual decline and further to a living hell seen today everywhere. The level of spirituality is determined by how close the conscience is within the thought process and how great is the "world's greatest conspiracy" within that mindset. In other words, how much ego is there in that person and how great and powerful has their alien identity grown.

........With this understanding, we must now view the fact that parents who now are of the dysfunctional and moronic condition and state of mind will add to the mental sickness (evil) further into the web of the family even to produce an offspring that will murder (suicide) for the evil parent.

Remember: One must always not forget that it is the evil which has got into that mind that produces the alien identity which to most people is not something that they are conscious of. Only because of this phenomenon can one forgive them because "they know not what they are doing". However, evil is what we are dealing with and it is something which can never be excused for any reason.

........As the family becomes more and more overtaken by the evil in the parent and as parental misguidance dominates the family, the children then become indoctrinated in a basic molested way further into a self-destructive mode and conditioing to not only move to suicidal tendencies but to kill for the parent whom they truly hate deep down but are too guilty to recognize this deeply supressed feeling. What these children (terrorists) are doing is to act out the hate and evil within the parent and to do the dirty work for them in an unconscious way acting as disciples of Satan. In reality, they are all victims of sinisterism but because they are zombies they cannot see themselves for what they truly are. Soon the entire populace of the world will become zombies controlled by the alien identity which represents Satan. It is a matter of time.

........This is the message which has been trying to get out there for many years but because of man's ego and the addictive state that it is in there cannot be the pain and suffering to awaken

this sleeping mind.

A Clue from Dr.Roy Foster......www.MentalGrowth.com

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